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همين جوري الكي ياد اون صحنه از فيلم " گلادياتور" افتادم كه "كومودوس" با پدرش تنها توي چادرشه. پدري كه امپراتوره و به رسم همه ي امپراتورها ، عرصه را بر پسر تنگ كرده تا شايد جانشيني به درد بخور از آن دربيايد و به رسم هميشه ي تاريخ ، پسر پادشاه بي عرضه و خوشگذران و عياش از كار در آمده.
هيچ وقت حسي كه اولين بار از دين آن همه درد و كينه و التماس براي محبت و گدايي عشق توي چشم هاي "كومودوس" ديدم فراموش نمي كنم.
از بين آن همه صحنه اي كه " ريدلي اسكات " به تصوير كشيده بود و از بين همه ي قهرماني ها ،تنهايي ها و غرور ماكسيموس ، من هيچ وقت " كومودوس" و آن همه درد را فراموش نكردم.
"كومودوس" تنها بود .

Marcus Aurelius: Are you ready to do your duty for Rome?i

Commodus: Yes, father

Marcus Aurelius: You will not be emperor

Commodus: Which wiser, older man is to take my place?i

Marcus Aurelius: My powers will pass to Maximus, to hold in trust until the Senate is ready to rule once more. Rome is to be a republic again

Commodus: Maximus?i

Marcus Aurelius: Yes. My decision disappoints you?i

Commodus: You wrote to me once, listing the four chief virtues: Wisdom, justice, fortitude and temperance. As I read the list, I knew I had none of them. But I have other virtues, father. Ambition. That can be a virtue when it drives us to excel. Resourcefulness, courage, perhaps not on the battlefield, but... there are many forms of courage. Devotion, to my family and to you. But none of my virtues were on your list. Even then it was as if you didn't want me for your son

Marcus Aurelius: Oh, Commodus. You go too far

Commodus: I search the faces of the gods... for ways to please you, to make you proud. One kind word, one full hug... where you pressed me to your chest and held me tight. Would have been like the sun on my heart for a thousand years. What is it in me that you hate so much?i

Marcus Aurelius: Shh, Commodus

Commodus: All I've ever wanted was to live up to you, Caesar. Father

Marcus Aurelius: [Marcus Aurelius gets down on his knees] Commodus. Your faults as a son is my failure as a father. Come

[Gives Commodus a hug]

Commodus: [Commodus hugs Marcus and cries] Father. I would have butcher the whole world... if you would only love me! i

[Commodus begins to asphyxiate Marcus while they hug, Marcus grunts]